1. I think my degree is a fucking waste of my time and my parent's money. But i'm sure as hell not backing out now. I won't let them say I told you so.
2. I can't drive. I don't have my learners, which in NZ is the most basic level you can have. You get it when you're 15. I haven't even tried. I'm 19 and a half. And I just don't care.
3. Really, I don't care.
4. I am a commitment phobe. After a week of dating a guy, I either get bored and dump him, or I get bored but stay with him cos he's a nice guy. After about a month, if i've stayed, he realises i'm a lost cause and leaves. It's never a surprise and it doesn't really hurt. They all deserve better.
5. I like pretty.odd. But I will never be able to say I love it, even though I love the guys and think Northern Downpour is one of the best songs i've ever heard. I really wish I could love it, but I don't. I believe it's an album that can only be listened to and properly appreciated when you are happyhappyhappyesctatichappy. I never feel that way, so I can never truly appreciate it.
6. I think the Northern Downpour video fucking sucked, espes compared to the rest of their vids. I only really watch it because Ryho's running scene is fucking hilarious.
7. I swear a lot when i'm in a bad mood.
8. My dream, since forever, is to be an author. To show JK Rowling and Stephanie Meyer what it means to have both a fucking awesome plot idea, like they do, and to be a really brilliant writer. Honestly, I love their work, but neither are great writers, they just had good ideas.
9. I am physically incapable of writing fanfiction anymore. I wrote from 13-18, around 67 fics, mostly all Harry Potter. Then I gave it up to focus on my own work, in my own worlds. I now cannot go back. I don't know if this is good or bad.
10. I think Ryan Ross is really lucky to have Keltie Colleen. She seems to be one of the happiest, loveliest people ever. But I'm not entirely convinced he truly appreciates her and all she has put up with for him, but i honestly 100% hope i'm wrong.
11. Empires is fucking magic, and i'm really fucking happy TomRad left/was kicked out/watever of TAI. Empires is better, he's having fun. And Mike Carden creeps me out.
12. On that note, the only member of TAI I can stand is Bill. The rest... I dunno... They seem pretty arrogant for a band that isn't actually that famous. Nobody here in NZ has heard anything other than "About a Girl" "Big Mess" and "Everything we had." and that's pushing it.
13. Seriously, Empires' Howl>All TAI albums put together. Sean Van Vleet's voice... orgasmic
14. I miss MCR. They will always be my first love. New record boys, asap, please? Also, i'm so fucking happy that you're all happy. 4/5 of you are happily married (I hope) and Gerard motherfucking Way is gonna be a DADDY!  He's gonna make a great Dad. Actually, forget a new record, focus on ur marriages, and baby!Way.
15. I wish Pete Wentz would stop fartassing around with all these new, shit bands he keeps signing, *cough*Hey Monday*cough* and focus %100 on what's really important; his wife, his son and his Fall Out Boy's. Nothing else.
16. I'm real pissed off i have to suffer through an opening set by Hey Monday at my FOB concert on the 23rd. DNW!
17. I'm sorry if i'm offending anyone. I'm probably gonna take at least 3/4 of this back come tomorrow, but right now this is exactly what I feel. But seriously, I don't mean any offence.
18. I don't like Alicia Simmons-Way. I'm glad MikeyWay is happy etc, but there's something about her... like with Mike Carden, I can't put my finger on it.... Just makes me shudder. But if/when she gets pregnant, i'll prob start liking her. Wow, i'm such a bitch.
19. Finally, I think this is relevant here... it may help explain my bitterness... I have never been in love.
20. I'm glad.

( Risking it all. H/G )

Title: Remembering a promise
Pairing: None, harry centric
Summary: I always knew he'd name his firstborn son James. Harry takes him to Cedric Diggory's grave. 
 

Title: One Regret
Pairing: Harry/Cho onesided.
Summary: Harry watches Cho sleep and wishes he was the man she wants him to be.

 

Title:Xenophobia
Pairing: Ron/hermione
Summary: Ron vs Viktor= hilarity

 

Title: Zero
Pairing: Roger/Cho
Summary: Roger's a good guy. And a fool.


 

Title: Never real
Pairing: onesided Harry/Cho
Summary: That girl is made entirely of angst, I swear
 

 
Title: Maybe
Pairing: Fred/angelina

 Title: Win some, lose some
Pairing: One-sided ron/hermione

Wrote these when I was 15:

Title: The same as always
Fandom: Harry Potter
Summary: What happens between the Golden Trio, before the beginning of the last battle?

In chronological order according to Potterverse: Written about the time of GOF = I was 14.

Title: Let me go
Fandom: Harry Potter
Summary: Song-fic. I love this pairing; Katie/Marcus. He is not a troll!

Title: The long goodbye
Fandom: Harry Potter
Summary: Song-fic. Crack: Angelina/Pucey... cos how could you not choose Fred?
 

Title: Addicted
Fandom: Harry Potter
Summary: Song-fic. Crack pairing; Alicia/Warrington... but since when do things ever turn out the way you expect?

 

There are times when you look at your two best friends and try not to cry. It’s foolish, but it’s true. You feel guilty, (so incredibly guilty,) that Katie and Angelina are denied the loves of their lives, when you can Apparate to yours any time you want. And then you think that that’s foolish, because he isn’t the love of your life. And then you think that you always were an awful liar.

// I heard you're doing okay
But I want you to know
I'm a dick
I'm addicted to you
I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this? \\
 

Angelina’s voice jerks you out of your musings, so you go back to listening to her chatter away about how happy she is, being married to Fred. And you think to yourself that she’s a crappy liar, too. Last year she’d ended her 1 year… thing… with Adrian Pucey.

// I tried to make you happy but you left anyway. \\

She’d not said a word, afterwards, to you or Katie other than, "Fred and I are getting married!" Cos she knew that was all that was needed. So, neither you nor Katie ever dared to think the name Adrian Pucey since. It was like she’d erased him completely from her memory. (But you could still see the quiet droop of her shoulders, when she thought no-one else was in the room.)

// I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over. \\

You glance at Katie, who’s sitting opposite you, dutifully sorting through Angie’s wedding photos, while Mrs. Frederick Weasley flits around their tiny apartment on a high. Katie’s relationship with Marcus Flint had broken down last year, also. (You’d never quite figured out when or where or how that had even begun, because Flint graduated ages ago, in Katie’s 4^th year.) Yet, all of a sudden, half way through the last year, people had suddenly started to remark in confusion that Marcus Flint had re-appeared. Only you and Angie knew the truth of it. You might’ve had no idea how it began, but you certainly knew how it ended, (she cried for weeks.)

// Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker. \\
 

And so Katie, just like Angie, lies to herself, and to everyone else. She’s never mentioned Marcus Flint’s name again. (You alone seem to pick up on the permanent sadness in her eyes.)

// Since the day I met you
And after all we've been through
I'm still a dick
I'm addicted to you
I think you know that it's true
I'd run a thousand miles to get you
Do you think I deserve this? \\
 

Later, after a lot of coffee and gossip, Katie Apparate’s back to the school and you head home. You’re not at all surprised to find him waiting there.

// I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to keep you
But you left anyway. \\

When you wake, he’s gone, just like always. You don’t really care, you tell yourself. You know he’ll be back tonight anyways. He is, of course, (you didn’t doubt it for a second,) and you fall into bed together. In the morning, you wonder what Angie and Kates would say, if they knew about this. And you decide to tell them, when you see them this coming weekend, (except you don’t).

// I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you. \\
 

And so, time drags onwards. Days turn into weeks, which melt into months. And over time, you find yourself becoming more and more… intrigued by him. Everything about him captivates you, (the azure intensity of his eyes, the thin, pale scar on his chest, the way his skin glows in the moonlight.)

// Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never wanna do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker. \\
 

You don’t speak to him much, of course. This… situation… means nothing to him, of course. You just had to go and fall in love with him, of course. But it wouldn’t work, you tell yourself over and over, (and over and over and over and over.)

// How long will I be waiting?
Until the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine. \\

It dawns on you that you’re going to have to break this off, either that or marry the guy, (you know what’s going to happen, and it isn’t the latter.) And so, you take a deep breathe and try to calm your rapid heartbeat. When he Apparates right onto you couch, you come straight out and say it.

// I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you. \\

"This can’t continue," he just stares at you in stunned silence. "This… it isn’t right… it wouldn’t… it’s not… you don’t…" but you can’t seem to continue. "I don’t what?" he asks, his face devoid of emotion. "You don’t… you don’t love…me." 
"Oh," he says. "Well, if that’s it then I guess I should go." 
"No!" you shout and he sits back down, confused.

// I'm trying to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it and I need it
I'm addicted to you. \\

"Don’t go," you beg, and every notion you had of keeping calm goes out the window. He just stares at you as you cry. "You aren’t supposed to just… leave! You’re supposed to stay!! You’re supposed to love me!" But he doesn’t.

"Why don’t you love me??" You collapse to the floor, trembling and screaming and crying. He just sits and watches you in silence.

// Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker
I'm addicted to you
Heartbreaker. \\

And so, time drags onwards. Days turn into weeks, which melt into months. The guilty feeling you had for Angie and Kates changes into one of inconceivable loss. Your friends don’t understand why you barely say a word to anyone, anymore. He doesn’t come back to you, ever again. You tell yourself it’s a good thing, (you always were an awful liar.)

Title: I just want you to know
Fandom: Harry Potter
Summary: Song-fic. Draco/Ginny. Youy know it won't end well.
 

Hi there.
Im using this to post my writing. If you read it, I hope you'll enjoy.
Some of it is fanfiction, and some of it is my own crap. 
I'm in a sour mood so sorry i'm sounding rude.
Will post my stuff next entry.
Bye-bye